It is so hard to look at my computer monitor each day. It makes me so happy that I have been blessed with a 2nd beautiful, sweet, happy baby. She and her big sister are the reason I trod through the work day every day. However, that same sweet face makes me so sad. I want to be there for each of her waking moments...and the ones where she is sweetly sleeping. It kills me when I have to leave her in the morning, only to get home with her and usually only have 90 minutes before she goes back asleep. Today was pretty rough since most of the morning was in anticipation of Shane bringing her here after her Dr. appointment today. She was perfectly charming and snuggly to everyone, drank her bottle and proceeded to sleep in her car seat next to my desk. In my mind I was thinking..."this isn't bad, I could totally get work done." I made phone calls to vendors while feeding Hannah and kept going. I wish in a parallel universe I could spend the quality time I want with Hannah and Abby, yet still get in my much coveted adult interaction time. Oh the dilemma the working mom has to figure out. I am still working on how to be content with my situation. But in the meantime, I will just gaze at my dolly, waiting to give her kisses all over her face.
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